Jafer told me of his own lifelong spiritual journey. At age 22, he was reading a Bible that had been given to him, comparing Jesus' teaching with what Mohamed taught in the Quran. Because Islam "ran through his veins" as he put it, he suffered great internal conflict, to the point that, one day, he tossed both the Bible and Quran and cried out to God, tearing his clothes and pulling his hair. Jafer told me, "I was beating on the refrigerator, the stove and on the walls and pointing my finger to God and crying out to Him: 'Where are You? How can I find You? How can I find the truth?'"